These things are difficult right now:

*Getting through the next week.
The infamous fundraiser is looming, and it's causing me to have nightmares pretty much every time I fall asleep. It will all be over just one week from now. I made the mistake of asking how much $ is in the annual budget for this event; that was a bad idea.

*Applying to the Peace Corps (two of us).
I have really forgotten how to do things like write motivational essays. What happened? I used to be a superstar at shameless self-promotion. I also need to get a lot of financial information from my parents without explaining why I need it. In lieu of recent family woes, we are not telling our fams about our applications until we're definitely in and have an approximate departure date.

*Giving up my house.
I know I need to tell my landlord that we're not staying another year, but for some reason, that's really scary. We like it there - it is a very happy first place we've had together - and if we don't get into the PC or can't leave when we want to, we will have given up the house for nothing. If we're staying in Athens for another year, I want to stay there and plant flowers in my brick beds.

I'm glad last weekend was so relaxing (aside from all the steak-pain). We saw Into the Wild, which was great. This movie bothered me enough to stay with me for a couple days (and give me more nightmares). You should see it.

Many wonderful things are happening now too, though. I'm starting to work with the Timothy House and the ARC, maybe My Sister's Place too (oh, and did I mention I'm now an elder at the Presb? ...) - all of a sudden I've remembered my former, hyper-busy self. In the past few years (also know as the abyss of college), I forgot that I was a joiner. I mean, at first it was intentional: "I'm taking a break from all this joining. No more activities for me." I was president of several community organizations, on advisory boards and committees of many others; indeed, my brain was melting circa 2002/3 from all the busyness. But somehow, this turned into five years, and now it feels like I'm slowly waking up from a long nap, and it feels really good.